If you've started querying you know the nervous tic as you refresh your browser, know the shaking finger as you click on the message, know the disappointment of seeing "not right for me, sorry" staring up at you from the screen.
This article about a day in the life of a querier was from yesterday's Guide to Literary Agents. I wondered how the author got into my dining room.
I've sent 35 queries. And by all accounts, I've done pretty well. I've had two requests for fulls from unsolicited queries--and three more as a result of a query combined with a conference meeting or contest. Five fulls out of 35 is pretty darn good if I do say so myself. So I'm confident I'll find the right agent. But...
Yesterday I got a pretty disappointing rejection. It was from someone I had met a couple of times, connected with, and who I know liked my concept. Something wasn't quite right for that person to take me on. I've had three pretty similar rejections from fulls--"good writing, good concept, not quite right for me." Or "didn't love it the way I'd hoped." My confidence is waning. But...
I have 12 queries that haven't responded--and two fulls still out. And like I tell my crit partners, 35 queries is not yet "querying widely." I'm confident I'll find the right agent.
Can you say flip-flop?
Logically I know with a concept people like and good writing I should keep querying until I hit the right person at the right time. But I'm starting to waver (did you notice). Should I be making revisions? Noone has given me revision suggestions on my current MS. Should I continue boldly or wait until more of my outstanding queries come back? Or wait to hear from the two agents who still have fulls?
When will the query fairy come down and wave her magic wand?
Rather than sounding whiny and ungrateful and desperate, I need to answer my own questions. Every step along the way has it's own challenges, right? This is just one challenge.
I know my writing is good--I've had validation there. I know my concept is good, too. I think I'm going to wait a week or so and see if I get any feedback from the queries and fulls that are out. And then, I'm going to dive back into the query pool. There are lots of people looking for realistic YA who I haven't queried yet. In other words, there are more fish in the sea.
I'm confident. Really.